Hospice Help!

I have had the worst sleeplessness ever since I got home from San Diego a week ago.  I just keep blaming it on overdoing it, but it still wasn't going away after a week.  Today two of my favorite hospice ladies came over to help me problem solve.  So we changed some medications strengths  and times I am taking them.  Wish me luck.  I literally have been asleep the past week and it is getting really old, really fast.  I have things I need and want to do.  I am really afraid I am running out of time.
I need to:
 - Record all my Story Corps (stories of my life)
 - Create, arrange, buy presents for my kids and husband in the future
 - Make a list of the songs that will go along with my slideshow that will be shown at my wake
 - Pick my funeral songs
 - Final Honey-Do List :)
 - Finish a few ideas I want done at my funeral

  It is so weird to help plan your own funeral!!!!!!!  We have bought our burial plot and designed the headstone.  I think my hubby ordered my casket online (i need to check this out and give approval).  I want a cheap one, but not so cheap I look like a hillbilly.  

  BUT, then here is the most important thing.  I really want to accomplish the above list BUT,BUT,BUT,BUT.......I MUST spend as much quality time with the family as possible too.  So trying to balance this when you are super sleepy has been a big challenge.  
  We are meeting up with my sister Michelle & Ed and their 6 kids AND my brother Scott and Mitchell and their 5 kids AND my mom AND Corey's mom next Monday.  (Lance's family will be missing and I am not too happy about that) We rented a really cool cabin Monday-Thursday up in Kalispell, Whitefish, and Glacier National Park.  Hopefully my strength will hold out for us to create some fabulous memories in one of the most beautiful places on earth.  Tonight Corey & I decided that was too short of a trip so we booked a hotel room in Whitefish starting a few days earlier so we can have some mellow family time before it gets too crazy.  
   I just don't know how I can survive without my family.  How does one do that?  I don't think I can.  Then I get selfish and think how can they do it without me?  We think Carlie is going through another growth spurt (she is 11 and is 6'0"), She is now growing again....aaaaargh!  She needs her mommy to take her shopping, especially for jeans.  I am frightened what her dad will pick out.  It is hard enough to buy cool, age-appropriate, somewhat modest clothing for a girl that age, BUT an awkward 6 foot plus size 13 women shoe girl......OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!  Who is going to help my kiddos navigate making friends and making good choices in these friends.  Don't get me wrong Corey is an excellent parent, BUT being a mommy and daddy and a recent widow has got to be an insanely hard thing to do.
Well, it is getting super late and I must get a little sleep and take some more pain meds.  Thanks for listening to my little feel sorry for myself rant.
Love you my peeps,
Gina the Awesome

Yippee-Ki-Yay it is Berkeley's Birthday!

Here is the invitation I created for the birthday boy.   I had to put little boxes over my address and email to protect me from the creepers out there.


Yee-Haw....Berkeley's friends mosied on down to the Aldridge Ranch for a rip-roarin' birthday bonanza.

The horses had been rounded up into the corral

The Welcome Wagon had been set out

hats and bandannas awaited their new owners

games were ready

and the treats were waiting

 Berkeley's friends starting arriving and putting on their cowboy garb

Berkeley and his gang waiting for the rest of the gang to mosey on down

Happy Outlaw Berkeley

don't mess with Gunslinger Berkeley

Don't mess with Jake the Kid

Beware of Cow Stealing Carlie

Stay away from Claim Jumping Matthew

Don't mess with Switchback Spencer

Terrifying Jacob is on the loose!

Watch out of Round 'em Up Nathan

For some reason I did not get a wanted poster picture of Samantha and Josie....I am LAME.

 lining them up for some horse races

 giddy up!

Ride 'em cowboy!!!!!!

 look at the concentration :)

Cowboy Carlie can ride and pose at the same time.....definitely my daughter!

 Pin the Badge on the Sheriff

They did great!!!

Chow Time

 Such Cute Cow Pokes

 Yummy Cupcakes

 Gotta keep the cowboys hydrated

Carlie was such a great helper.  During lunch she lead the kids in a game of I Spy
(totally her idea - so proud of her initiative and leadership)

 Then the BANDIT arrived.......the cowboys and cowgirls started to chase him

 gonna get that bad guy!!!

 shooting the bandit

 We are gonna get that outlaw!!

The bandit is DOWN!!

 Hold 'em up outlaw!

The dead and SOAKED bandit!

 singing & blowing out the candles......

CUPCAKES with the Bandit!

 Love my girl!

 Spencer loved his cupcake

 Cutie Matthew

Love that cupcake face Nathan!

 Beautiful Cowgirl Josie

 Jake the ham!!  Hold 'em up!!

 Happy Samantha!!  Love her!!

Jacob my little leader...

 My weirdo Berk

gunslingers

 LOVE the evil face

 double the fire power

Time for presents....Berkeley's favorite part, of course.

He actually squealed in a super high pitched tone...hilarious

 Triple Trouble!!

what cuties

 The water guns were a HIT!

 Love my birthday boy

 That is one handsome cowboy

The party was super fun and there is NO WAY I could have done it without the help of my hard-working and creative mother!!!  Thank you mom - you are AMAZING!!!